ahahahah.

man, online gaming is addicting.
it's almost the end of the year, but there is still time to ruin my grades.
ahhh.
someone call the online gamers helpline (;

just a small town girl, living in a looooonley world

haha that song was stuck in my head today.
not the terrible ahh unlucky song ><

okay, well today was a terrific improvement upon my week, i must say.
let's hope it continues like this, and nothing else goes wrong.

i'll probably manage to screw something else royally up, but hey, at least i'm happy.
i have him back. well, not that i ever truly lost him but it felt like it for a few hours there.
i may not watch the 'you belong with me' music video in peace.

omg j&k+8 drama ahhh!
it makes me sad.
i actually cried at that show yesterday.
i hope they do what's best.

sooo many new couples these last few weeks!
it's hard to keep track of you guys now.
what is it about the end of the year that somehow sparks new like in people?
i mean, you guys! it's almost summer.
you should keep your options open for that 'hottie mc hottie' that's going to come knocking on your door veeery soon (;
well, besides me, of course. i'm good. great, actually.


i've got myself back again ---> (:

p.s. anyone want to take the midnight train going anywhere?

make it go away.

so i never thought a taylor swift song would make me break down and sob.
but theres a first time for everything.
i get off the phone,
my legs collapse under me,
and i don't know what the hell to do.
so i put on a pretty outfit.
and all i do is see my face in the mirror and not care. about anything.
'you belong with me'
tells both my story and another one intertwined.
i cant stop this.
i somehow 'saw' this coming.
it's not like i could help it.
and, for the first time, now that i'm mad i don't want to punch anyone.
i want to take it out on myself.
it's the feeling when you hear something and the first thing that comes to mind is 'how the heck did i manage to eff this up? HOW?!'

it's all my fault.
it's all my fault.
it's all my fault.

or it feels like it is, now.
well, crime and punishment i suppose.

i've tried to be nice so many times in the past few weeks, and all it has ever come back to do is bite me. I keep telling myself that this is God testing my faith or something.

i just want to close my eyes and make it go away.
i just want to fall asleep and wake up yesterday.
i just want to run to you like we were never through and you would say to me what you'd always say.

please, make it go away.


i have so much to say, and yet nothing at all.
i am so thankful for those of you who care enough to put up with my endless ranting about nothing that is even discernible speech.

lose. your shoes?

haha, dipali forgot the words to footlose.
i love her XD

that's basically all i had to say.
uhm, yep.
oh, and i watched the baseball game today.
freakish quotes of the day:
"i love me some baseball."- me
"OMG francesca woodsman. ewwww!"- me and francesca.
"you know how sometimes you link a word to a picture. yeah, well, when i think of 'vida' i kind of think about your garage door."- me to ali.
"well, i'm leaving in two minutes, so the jokes on you"- evan about the ump possibly kicking him out.

this makes me sad/i'm a complete retard

http://www.ocregister.com/articles/school-state-layoff-2388121-budget-year

Layoffs for the next year (well the 80 or so relased ones) are contained here. The only OA teacher on that list? Mr. Hauge. Maaan, I hope not. I don't know who else there is to have a bag of ice handy when I bruise my joints and my other various minor injuries.

Speaking of which, today I was bouncing on one of those exercise ball things, and I leaned forward toward the computer. Something sharp cut it, and all of a sudden I hit the bedframe and then the floor. My tailbone is bruised as heck, and it hurts to move. So I'm avoiding that when it is all possible. I really hope it feels better tomorrow, or I'm going to have to walk around all day with a pain in my ass. Literally. (And I'm not talking about Ali (;)

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Okay, so i know that sometimes PETA does go a little overboard, but...this video does bring up some good points about dissection. I am not for it or against it, but this is sad.
http://www.peta2.com/feat/classroomcutups/?c=11


I might post more later, but I'm not sure yet.

I'm sorry but I forgot...

...to wish you a happy 20th month<3

gv-ge-yu-hi, u-na-li-go-di (:

nonsensible rambling.

There is really nothing that I have to say currently in the blog, but I just felt the need to post since I have not in awhile. Okay? Good.

Well, my brothers are sleeping at my grandma's tonight, so it's just me and my parents.
I don't think I'd really like to be an only child, just me and my parents here is kind of getting on my nerves a little bit, plus, I miss the carefree aura that surrounds me when I'm playing around with my brothers. Those guys are the greatest. Sure, they do get my pretty angry and make me want to hit them, but, through all that, I would miss them so much if they weren't around. Feel free to borrow them when they get on my nerves, though. But you don't get to keep them.

So I have decided that all my little brother, Koby, thinks about is BASEBALL. I mean, I had my suspicions before but now I am very sure. He got new catcher's gear the other day, too. He's a pitcher, first baseman, and a catcher. He sits around playing baseball video games all the time, and on the old Playstation 2 we have in the car. Everyday when I get home he asks me if I want to go play catch/pitch to him and whatnot, and then afterwards he watches baseball on TV. I swear if I looked in on him at night, he'd be sleeping while cuddling with his baseball glove or baseball.

My mom and other brother, Payne, went to the zoo today. I'm almost jealous. Well, it's mostly because they got to see owls (my newly dubbed favorite animal, with monkeys coming in at a close second).

Speaking of more baseball related things, softball season is almost over! AHH, I'm really going to miss it, I must say. Last game is on Friday, and it is vs. Valley Christian. I hope we do well. The banquet is going to be fun.

And on a totally unrelated subject (that is technically always related), I learn new things everyday. Still. After 20 months (tomorrow!), it's funny that there is still more to know. But I guess that everyone is always changing. Besides, it does liven things up to not have everything the same. I'll elaborate more tomorrow.

Well, I'm going to bring this to a close before I ramble some more. Thanks for reading this if you did. Or maybe you just skimmed it, but hey, at least you care.

pull me down hard, and drown me in love.

Something about the song "Come on Get Higher" makes me happy.
It's catchy, cute, and... well, it makes me think of you.

(:
Then again, everything does nowadays.



Some people ask me if I'm bored with how life is for me right now, and I don't see why they would ever think such a thing. There are always new things to try and do, some even right under your nose. You just have to look down instead of being stuck up.

I love being in love. It is the most amazing feeling that I can ever possibly come across in life. The feeling of existing in the prescence of the person you wholeheartedly trust, and would do anything for is the most amazing experience that will ever exist. When that feeling comes mutually, it's all magic from there. I do question one thing: Why this young? Why is it that now, so few years into my life, do I find the person that feels like the one I would want to love for the rest of my life?

I question it, and then I remember how it makes me feel. How empty of a person I was before he came into my life. How much I love every minute of my time that I get to spend with him, whether it is spent having a serious conversation, or just that moment when your eyes meet in passing, and you catch a quick smile before shuffling off to wherever you need to be. I'm not who I used to be, no. If you liked the girl I was before Chris, then fine. But she didn't like herself. I feel like he makes me love not only him, but who I am too. It's crazy.

Well, I'm crazy, so what else do you expect?

I didn't really pay much attention into what I put into this post, I just thought that I would add to this before days slipped away and I forgot. I tend to just type whatever passes through my mind at the moment, but that's usually the clearest cut points, anyway.