so i can't exactly say i have a reason for posting, other than i really wanted to use that title there.
fun stuff.
anyways, if my grandma ever gets ahold of my mother then i'm going to the movies/knotts today.
but ugh, this is freaking annoying.
so finally my grandma agreed.
sheesh.
now i'm going to eat macaroni & cheese, watch tv, and go hit bp(:
fun stuff.
anywho, i found out our school library has books i actually want to read.
it's fantastic.
i'm currently on page 148 of the mysterious benedict society.
it's quite intriguing. and i only got it like, two days ago.
i think there should be an accent on the o in rubio.
i looked rubio up on facebook and like three of them had accents on the o.
so, you know what, pshh now mine does too. XD
well, like i said, this is a pointless post.
have fun with whatever you're doing on this day off.
...next semester i have hale.. >:/
good luck to all the sports teams today, let me know how you all do!
adios.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
I would really like to thank the person that decided all 9th graders should read Romeo & Juliet.
I have come to understand the play a great deal better than the story I originally thought it to be. Now I find that Romeo Montague was more of a normal teenage boy than I thought him to be, with his fickleness and frisky attitude. I finally realized he was grieving over Rosaline one morning, in love with Juliet that night, married to her the next morning, and in bed with her the same night. Honestly, I feel that boy almost took advantage of her young purity. She had said that marriage was a honor she didn't want. Well, Romeo, look what happens when you're only in love, well, with being in love.
Other than my analysis of the play, I really don't have much else to say here.
I've been thinking about the future quite a bit, and I really don't know how things are going to end up. It kind of scares me to think that I could lose just about everything I have right now in the blink of an eye. But of course, I'm not going to. The only reason I wish I lived in times of old would be to be able to get married at such a young age. But, now, I live in the USA, with boundless opportunities around me. I know I don't have to choose now, and I hope that I will never have to make a hard decision about what the future holds. That decision being the one between my love and my passion. Not that they can't be found together, but, I do want to become something with my life. Really, though, I don't want to prioritize one above the other, but it just... feels, right to put the first, well, first. Although I heard the same thing from the other side of the conversation. I understand that I'm important, but I don't want to get in the way of someone following their dreams. Living to their full potential as a human being.
Well, maybe the world will end in 2012 and I'll never have to decide.
I guess this has all come up because of the fact that there really isn't too much going on in my life at the moment. Please let something interesting come up, soon.
Free dress day tomorrow, off to pick out my outfit (:
I have come to understand the play a great deal better than the story I originally thought it to be. Now I find that Romeo Montague was more of a normal teenage boy than I thought him to be, with his fickleness and frisky attitude. I finally realized he was grieving over Rosaline one morning, in love with Juliet that night, married to her the next morning, and in bed with her the same night. Honestly, I feel that boy almost took advantage of her young purity. She had said that marriage was a honor she didn't want. Well, Romeo, look what happens when you're only in love, well, with being in love.
Other than my analysis of the play, I really don't have much else to say here.
I've been thinking about the future quite a bit, and I really don't know how things are going to end up. It kind of scares me to think that I could lose just about everything I have right now in the blink of an eye. But of course, I'm not going to. The only reason I wish I lived in times of old would be to be able to get married at such a young age. But, now, I live in the USA, with boundless opportunities around me. I know I don't have to choose now, and I hope that I will never have to make a hard decision about what the future holds. That decision being the one between my love and my passion. Not that they can't be found together, but, I do want to become something with my life. Really, though, I don't want to prioritize one above the other, but it just... feels, right to put the first, well, first. Although I heard the same thing from the other side of the conversation. I understand that I'm important, but I don't want to get in the way of someone following their dreams. Living to their full potential as a human being.
Well, maybe the world will end in 2012 and I'll never have to decide.
I guess this has all come up because of the fact that there really isn't too much going on in my life at the moment. Please let something interesting come up, soon.
Free dress day tomorrow, off to pick out my outfit (:
Sunday, January 25, 2009
the walls that they put up to hold us back fell down.
i've been thinking about everything lately.
i resolved yesterday to see something i don't normally see everyday,
to see things that i would normally pass by.
i guess i'm starting to realize i shouldn't waste this life,
that i should have fun in everything that i do.
so i told my dad i was thinking about joining softball.
you'd have thought it was his lifelong dream for me how quickly he jumped at it.
my old cleats are too small, so i have to get some new ones, and get the paperwork, etc.
i kind of wish i hadn't told him, seeing as he's going to make me go out on the weekends and work
rawrrr.
well, it's better than wishing i had joined, isn't it?
not too much to look forward to this week.
it's finals, so i'm going to need some good reading material for after the tests.
so recommend me some good books, please!
and the superbowl is coming.
i'm trying to figure out what i'm doing that weekend.
but i have plans friday and saturday, it seems.
and then ali gets to stay with me!
(:
welllllll, there is really not much else to say.
byebye!
i resolved yesterday to see something i don't normally see everyday,
to see things that i would normally pass by.
i guess i'm starting to realize i shouldn't waste this life,
that i should have fun in everything that i do.
so i told my dad i was thinking about joining softball.
you'd have thought it was his lifelong dream for me how quickly he jumped at it.
my old cleats are too small, so i have to get some new ones, and get the paperwork, etc.
i kind of wish i hadn't told him, seeing as he's going to make me go out on the weekends and work
rawrrr.
well, it's better than wishing i had joined, isn't it?
not too much to look forward to this week.
it's finals, so i'm going to need some good reading material for after the tests.
so recommend me some good books, please!
and the superbowl is coming.
i'm trying to figure out what i'm doing that weekend.
but i have plans friday and saturday, it seems.
and then ali gets to stay with me!
(:
welllllll, there is really not much else to say.
byebye!
Monday, January 19, 2009
there are those days where you don't want to wake up.
and then there are the days where you wish you never went to sleep in the first place.
i feel slightly sick today, and it's mostly because i had a horrible dream last night.
i don't want to recall all of the details of it, but it was mostly all of my life unraveling at the seams.
and then the person i love most dying at my fault, basically.
i woke up at two this morning, hoping that i never had to go back to sleep again.
so i'm very tired, but i don't think i'll ever want to sleep again.
funny how a dream (well, nightmare) can make your day horrid.
i guess i will try to forget about it.
and i will, eventually.
so i realized i'm quite a weird person.
i mean, i like watching phineas & ferb.
and i talk to my cats like they can actually understand what i am saying.
i've got a toy penguin that i treat like my baby.
and i have a grown mind, but a childish soul.
disneyland still makes me happy.
annnnnd so do you<3
i don't have much to say about today.
i'll get to homework sooner or later, and read most of the day.
i might write a story or something... (:
i feel slightly sick today, and it's mostly because i had a horrible dream last night.
i don't want to recall all of the details of it, but it was mostly all of my life unraveling at the seams.
and then the person i love most dying at my fault, basically.
i woke up at two this morning, hoping that i never had to go back to sleep again.
so i'm very tired, but i don't think i'll ever want to sleep again.
funny how a dream (well, nightmare) can make your day horrid.
i guess i will try to forget about it.
and i will, eventually.
so i realized i'm quite a weird person.
i mean, i like watching phineas & ferb.
and i talk to my cats like they can actually understand what i am saying.
i've got a toy penguin that i treat like my baby.
and i have a grown mind, but a childish soul.
disneyland still makes me happy.
annnnnd so do you<3
i don't have much to say about today.
i'll get to homework sooner or later, and read most of the day.
i might write a story or something... (:
Sunday, January 18, 2009
so winter formal was;
interesting to say the least.
it wasn't so much the dance itself, just the people.
not that i was really paying much attention to anyone but one person.
but this is the internet, and i'm not about to divulge all of the miniscule details of my partying to you.
especially if my mother happens to stumble across this one day or another.
but heck, i might as well say something besides 'formal was fun'.
buca di beppo was quite fun beforehand.
well, for my side of the table, at least (?)
ahh, well.
the dance itself was a bit of a blur from my standpoint.
alot of dancing, sweating, pained feet.
...and something else, too. but we'll save that one for another day.
i hope there are no horrible pictures of me circulating the internet.
i also found out a few things that i've been wanting to know.
afterwards, i went home with ali.
and we talked and vented of our night of tao.
i learned of an interesting bathroom conversation i oh-so wish i could have been involved in.
and now i know that i have to do something, after all.
i can't just sit there because this might actually end up affecting something someday.
well, dears, i have no further details of my night to tell, so this will be our parting.
and it's not 'sweet sorrow'.
it wasn't so much the dance itself, just the people.
not that i was really paying much attention to anyone but one person.
but this is the internet, and i'm not about to divulge all of the miniscule details of my partying to you.
especially if my mother happens to stumble across this one day or another.
but heck, i might as well say something besides 'formal was fun'.
buca di beppo was quite fun beforehand.
well, for my side of the table, at least (?)
ahh, well.
the dance itself was a bit of a blur from my standpoint.
alot of dancing, sweating, pained feet.
...and something else, too. but we'll save that one for another day.
i hope there are no horrible pictures of me circulating the internet.
i also found out a few things that i've been wanting to know.
afterwards, i went home with ali.
and we talked and vented of our night of tao.
i learned of an interesting bathroom conversation i oh-so wish i could have been involved in.
and now i know that i have to do something, after all.
i can't just sit there because this might actually end up affecting something someday.
well, dears, i have no further details of my night to tell, so this will be our parting.
and it's not 'sweet sorrow'.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
it's two AM and i'm cursing your name.
today was... normal.
learned about the dangers of tobacco in health.
learned about directions in spanish, which i can't even do in english..
but i got a map of the whole district...
so now i get to stalk people! (:
i'm going to the homecoming game on friday!
and winter formal is rapidly approaching.
i still don't know what to do with my hair! (yikes.)
i know this weekend is going to be fantastic.
especially with ali, whom i seem to be moving in with. XD
i found a really interesting song called 'the way i loved you' by taylor swift.
that would have a good music video if she made one, which she should.
i'm watching phineas and ferb right now.
i love that show too much for a fifteen year old... (:
learned about the dangers of tobacco in health.
learned about directions in spanish, which i can't even do in english..
but i got a map of the whole district...
so now i get to stalk people! (:
i'm going to the homecoming game on friday!
and winter formal is rapidly approaching.
i still don't know what to do with my hair! (yikes.)
i know this weekend is going to be fantastic.
especially with ali, whom i seem to be moving in with. XD
i found a really interesting song called 'the way i loved you' by taylor swift.
that would have a good music video if she made one, which she should.
i'm watching phineas and ferb right now.
i love that show too much for a fifteen year old... (:
Friday, January 9, 2009
i want to ask you to dance right there, in the middle of the parking lot.
this entire blog basically refers to the same person.
so today was one of the best days i've had in a while.
despite the fact that i was dead beat.
and that my stomach has been hurting on and off all day.
but one class period made me more happy than any other has for awhile.
i hate to be the kind that attaches, because i know how annoying that can be.
but i can't help it with you.
i mean, just thinking about you makes me more happy than i can express.
...let alone even imagining spending the rest of my life with you.
i'm going to stop before i get too ahead of myself.
i'm starting to realize that i'm more like bella than i originally thought.
and i did compare you to edward before you ever told me those things, but i see the resemblance even more now.
he's perfect, is he not? (;
& you are too.
what a coincidence.
i came up with a good---no PERFECT---idea for the POP show.
buuuuut i still haven't decided if i want to put it into effect.
the guy in question probably won't agree.
and i know when you read this you're going to ask me what it is...
so go ahead, you know you want to (:
going back to how my day was amazing, mr morris was a face i haven't seen in awhile.
he didn't tell us about happytown.
i guess he thinks we're too old.. ?
i enjoy sitting in choir watching movies.
it always turns out so fantastically well for me.
i'm so tired, i'll go to sleep now.
goodnight all who bothered to read this.
goodnight to you, the person i love most in this world.
so today was one of the best days i've had in a while.
despite the fact that i was dead beat.
and that my stomach has been hurting on and off all day.
but one class period made me more happy than any other has for awhile.
i hate to be the kind that attaches, because i know how annoying that can be.
but i can't help it with you.
i mean, just thinking about you makes me more happy than i can express.
...let alone even imagining spending the rest of my life with you.
i'm going to stop before i get too ahead of myself.
i'm starting to realize that i'm more like bella than i originally thought.
and i did compare you to edward before you ever told me those things, but i see the resemblance even more now.
he's perfect, is he not? (;
& you are too.
what a coincidence.
i came up with a good---no PERFECT---idea for the POP show.
buuuuut i still haven't decided if i want to put it into effect.
the guy in question probably won't agree.
and i know when you read this you're going to ask me what it is...
so go ahead, you know you want to (:
going back to how my day was amazing, mr morris was a face i haven't seen in awhile.
he didn't tell us about happytown.
i guess he thinks we're too old.. ?
i enjoy sitting in choir watching movies.
it always turns out so fantastically well for me.
i'm so tired, i'll go to sleep now.
goodnight all who bothered to read this.
goodnight to you, the person i love most in this world.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
quite a night.
i just can't put my finger on it.
honestly, it's like i've got peanut butter and jelly, and something's missing.
obviously it has to be a huge component, considering pb & j only has three things in it.
but alas, i have no idea.
well, i'm not going to soulsearch or anything.
that gets me absolutely nowhere.
so today i rode bikes with ali to school and back.
fun stuff.
albertaco's fries with cheese and guacamole are delicious.
i had to babysit four lovely children today when my mom went to the mall with her friend.
actually, i wish you could have seen it.
my mom's friend has two girls about the ages of my two brothers.
it was AMAZING to see them acting all gentlemen-ly toward them.
and it was the most aww-worthy thing i've seen in awhile.
my little brother, payne, was asking sarah if he could get her a pop-tart and water.
i was sitting on the couch watching phineas and ferb with them.
my other little brother, koby, was playing wii with catherine in his room, and SHARING.
the way they were being all adorable made me wish someone was there too. (:
i'm going through an interesting stage right now.
i don't get it.
oh, and don't get on my nerves.
i might bite your face off or something.
i could do without so many people right now.
time to go finish watching the season premeire of SLOTAT i recorded.
honestly, it's like i've got peanut butter and jelly, and something's missing.
obviously it has to be a huge component, considering pb & j only has three things in it.
but alas, i have no idea.
well, i'm not going to soulsearch or anything.
that gets me absolutely nowhere.
so today i rode bikes with ali to school and back.
fun stuff.
albertaco's fries with cheese and guacamole are delicious.
i had to babysit four lovely children today when my mom went to the mall with her friend.
actually, i wish you could have seen it.
my mom's friend has two girls about the ages of my two brothers.
it was AMAZING to see them acting all gentlemen-ly toward them.
and it was the most aww-worthy thing i've seen in awhile.
my little brother, payne, was asking sarah if he could get her a pop-tart and water.
i was sitting on the couch watching phineas and ferb with them.
my other little brother, koby, was playing wii with catherine in his room, and SHARING.
the way they were being all adorable made me wish someone was there too. (:
i'm going through an interesting stage right now.
i don't get it.
oh, and don't get on my nerves.
i might bite your face off or something.
i could do without so many people right now.
time to go finish watching the season premeire of SLOTAT i recorded.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
back to school tomorrow.
i'm not dreading it.
actually, i'd like to see all my friends again!
i finished all my homework.
and now i'm attempting to kill time before i have to go to sleep.
i went to the mall today.
i think i've gone to the mall 11ish days this break.
I SWEAR.
i really don't have much to say right now, other than the fact that i just ate dinner.
and had ice cream.
it was disgusting when my brother spit spaghetti all over the kitchen. ewwy ><
you know what else is gross..?
MY MOM HAVING A FACEBOOK.
yeah. a w k w a r d.
so if i am your friend on facebook, talk to me in messages from now on, and not wall comments.
i have my entire outfit for formal now.
accessories and all!
so i have nothing to worry about except how to do my hair.
i really want to read Inkdeath, because I never got to before (kind of forgot about the series.)
I must go buy it now!
but then again i probably should reread Inkheart and Inkspell.
I'm probably going to reread Eragon and Eldest, considering I haven't read Brisingr yet.
I'm so behind.
I blame the Twilight books.
But I'm desperate for new/good reading material...
because you know i'm a fiend(:
so talk to me if you know some i should read.
other than that, i've got nothing to say.
although i did have another good dream.
not as good as the others though(;
ahh, well, maybe better ones tonight?
i hope so(:
actually, i'd like to see all my friends again!
i finished all my homework.
and now i'm attempting to kill time before i have to go to sleep.
i went to the mall today.
i think i've gone to the mall 11ish days this break.
I SWEAR.
i really don't have much to say right now, other than the fact that i just ate dinner.
and had ice cream.
it was disgusting when my brother spit spaghetti all over the kitchen. ewwy ><
you know what else is gross..?
MY MOM HAVING A FACEBOOK.
yeah. a w k w a r d.
so if i am your friend on facebook, talk to me in messages from now on, and not wall comments.
i have my entire outfit for formal now.
accessories and all!
so i have nothing to worry about except how to do my hair.
i really want to read Inkdeath, because I never got to before (kind of forgot about the series.)
I must go buy it now!
but then again i probably should reread Inkheart and Inkspell.
I'm probably going to reread Eragon and Eldest, considering I haven't read Brisingr yet.
I'm so behind.
I blame the Twilight books.
But I'm desperate for new/good reading material...
because you know i'm a fiend(:
so talk to me if you know some i should read.
other than that, i've got nothing to say.
although i did have another good dream.
not as good as the others though(;
ahh, well, maybe better ones tonight?
i hope so(:
Friday, January 2, 2009
two-thousand nine (:
i can't believe it's here already.
last year seemingly flew by.
dazzling, isn't it?
(just like edward cullen.)
well, this year i'm going to make mistakes, because i'm only human.
but i'm going to try my hardest not to make any concious ones this year.
i can't do that to anyone again.
anyways, i saw seven pounds.
i really want to ruin it for you right now.
but i'm not going to because someone might chew my head off.
let me just say that i cried twice.
i started crying, went "crap, i don't want anyone to see!" and wiped the tears away.
then i realized everything that happened, and tears came... again.
man, that movie... is amazing.
one movie not to see, though...
Changeling.
Well, it's a great movie when you think of plot and such things, but i hate what the premise is.
another movie that i really want to ruin for you, but i'm not going to.
it just hits my soft spot with little children in this one.
insanity, i tell you.
i also saw the movie Wanted.
wow, there are some sexual scenes in the beginning of that movie.
...yeah.
not any really good effects.. it was ehh.
well, i spent my new years eve at ali's uncle's house.
quite interesting night of NO SLEEP.
I stayed up about 27 hours before i got any sleep at all.
then we crashed.
when we got up, we were like, "WHY THE HECK did we do that..?!"
my new years day was spent.. not sleeping.
i stayed up all night, and then apparently--acc. to vince, there was an ECLIPSE at four in the morning.
dumbass, the moon MOVES.
hahahah.
then there was ozzy impersonating, and starbucks to wake me up.
caffiene is my savior.
i got another formal dress today.
i quite like it, considering it goes with all the accesories i just bought.
my goodness, i've been to the mall SO much over this break.
even more than my usual.
and i'm going to go to cabazon tomorrow.
in search of a tie, and whatever else i feel like getting.
i had another fantastic dream, about the same premise as before.
i miss chris so much, i have to dream everynight.
only the cats walked across me just at the BEST part of the dream was about to happen (;
arghhhhh.
well, at least i still have my imagination.
as far as new years resolutions go, i just want to be nicer, and appreciate more of what i have.
(both physically and emotionally.)
i would like to not be as dramatic, too.
the other resolutions are already known by the person it involves, so they need not be discussed here.
i'm going to write a 109 in 2009(of things i want to accomplish this year), just for the heck of it.
1. buy a mannequin
2. ride silver bullet twenty times in one visit to knotts
3. go to a fashion show
4. 'dazzle' someone
5. not waste money on something i don't need, and will never use.
6. pass all my classes.
7. write a blog that doesn't confuse everyone.
8. learn how to meditate
9. read... thirty books.
10. start a journal
11. get better at singing.
12. ...and dancing.
13. get chris to dance with me. (;
14. donate to charity.
15. buy the office seasons on dvd.
16. make a dress all by myself.
17. and then wear it somewhere.
18. give my parents a random gift just because.
19.don't drink soda for a week.
20. learn five new cooking skills.
21. memorize how to make five different dishes.
22.straighten my hair once in a while
23. make stuffed animals
24. go running for no reason
25. be spontaneous.
26. find a great way to ask chris to sadies. (:
27. put my trust in someone.
28.keep my locker organized
29. watch my favorite disney movies again.
30. organize my thoughts.
31. be able to part with my edward cullen poster
32. grow up.
33. ...but be childish sometimes.
34. love like i never have before.
35. do something that i never thought i would.
36. don't take crap from anyone.
37. take down my facade
38. learn how to count to ten in ten different languages.
39. lose my gringa accent.
40. live each day to it's potential.
41. walk perfectly in killer high heels.
42. buy an outfit i look perfect in.
43. get a favorite song.
44. don't break my phone.
45. go one day without wanting to punch someone in the face.
46. have random acts of kindness everyday.
47. get a puppy.
48. do someone a huge favor.
49. get out of the country.
50. make no enemies
51. have a lord of the rings marathon.
52. ...and a star wars.
53. and a harry potter.
54. watch the season premiere of SLOTAT.
55. get a DVR
56. have a party.
57. get my new years kiss next year.
58. learn to drive.
59. get my license
60. turn sixteen in style.
61. learn how to read people better.
62. become more educated on cheeses and their uses in cooking. XD
63. learn some poledancing moves.
64. have a dream that tops my last great one.
65. then have it come true.
66. feel like a princess for a day.
67. not say that i am fat.
68. perfect my use of chopsticks.
69. <---that number right there.
70. try some new foods.
71. ...try fish, sushi, etc. to make sure i'm not missing out.
72. don't SUBMIT to anyone.
73. find the most awesome birthday presents for everyone.
74. cook for my family more.
75. keep my room clean.
76. make my bed. everyday.
77. go to a spa.
78. learn a song on the piano.
79. learn La La Land by Demi Lovato!
80. find a song that describes me perfectly.
81. ..and scream it in the middle of the street.
82. make a mixed CD of all the songs i love.
83. appreciate a new style of music.
84. appreciate life in general.
85. appreciate the best guy that has ever come into my life <3
86. buy the 'Hello, Cupcake!" book. i must have it.
87. get a few other cookbooks for reference.
88. try half of the recipies in my 3o minute meals cookbook.
89. go to bed at a decent hour.
90. no alcohol.
91. no drugs.
92. dance like nobody's watching, or like there's no tomorrow.
93. perfect my british accent.
94. try a mango.
95. eat more kiwi fruit.
96. make crepes.
97. find out what the heck makes a frappe.
98. make a better smoothie than jamba juice can.
99. don't be physically abusive toward people.
100. paint a picture.
101. paint my walls.
102. be proud of my beach body.
103. figure out what to do with my life.
104. learn how to sing opera.
105. learn a mariachi song for my grandma.
106. go through my clothes and donate some to charity.
107. spend time with chris over the summer.
108. get better at math.
109. survive through the year.
finally, i'd just like to say that i am starting to learn.
learn that i am an idiot sometimes.
and that there's so much I, myself can do to change the circumstances.
here's to a new year filled with peace, happiness, insane sanity, freedom, cute clothes, smiles, friends, kisses, hugs, dancing, singing, loving, and living.
last year seemingly flew by.
dazzling, isn't it?
(just like edward cullen.)
well, this year i'm going to make mistakes, because i'm only human.
but i'm going to try my hardest not to make any concious ones this year.
i can't do that to anyone again.
anyways, i saw seven pounds.
i really want to ruin it for you right now.
but i'm not going to because someone might chew my head off.
let me just say that i cried twice.
i started crying, went "crap, i don't want anyone to see!" and wiped the tears away.
then i realized everything that happened, and tears came... again.
man, that movie... is amazing.
one movie not to see, though...
Changeling.
Well, it's a great movie when you think of plot and such things, but i hate what the premise is.
another movie that i really want to ruin for you, but i'm not going to.
it just hits my soft spot with little children in this one.
insanity, i tell you.
i also saw the movie Wanted.
wow, there are some sexual scenes in the beginning of that movie.
...yeah.
not any really good effects.. it was ehh.
well, i spent my new years eve at ali's uncle's house.
quite interesting night of NO SLEEP.
I stayed up about 27 hours before i got any sleep at all.
then we crashed.
when we got up, we were like, "WHY THE HECK did we do that..?!"
my new years day was spent.. not sleeping.
i stayed up all night, and then apparently--acc. to vince, there was an ECLIPSE at four in the morning.
dumbass, the moon MOVES.
hahahah.
then there was ozzy impersonating, and starbucks to wake me up.
caffiene is my savior.
i got another formal dress today.
i quite like it, considering it goes with all the accesories i just bought.
my goodness, i've been to the mall SO much over this break.
even more than my usual.
and i'm going to go to cabazon tomorrow.
in search of a tie, and whatever else i feel like getting.
i had another fantastic dream, about the same premise as before.
i miss chris so much, i have to dream everynight.
only the cats walked across me just at the BEST part of the dream was about to happen (;
arghhhhh.
well, at least i still have my imagination.
as far as new years resolutions go, i just want to be nicer, and appreciate more of what i have.
(both physically and emotionally.)
i would like to not be as dramatic, too.
the other resolutions are already known by the person it involves, so they need not be discussed here.
i'm going to write a 109 in 2009(of things i want to accomplish this year), just for the heck of it.
1. buy a mannequin
2. ride silver bullet twenty times in one visit to knotts
3. go to a fashion show
4. 'dazzle' someone
5. not waste money on something i don't need, and will never use.
6. pass all my classes.
7. write a blog that doesn't confuse everyone.
8. learn how to meditate
9. read... thirty books.
10. start a journal
11. get better at singing.
12. ...and dancing.
13. get chris to dance with me. (;
14. donate to charity.
15. buy the office seasons on dvd.
16. make a dress all by myself.
17. and then wear it somewhere.
18. give my parents a random gift just because.
19.don't drink soda for a week.
20. learn five new cooking skills.
21. memorize how to make five different dishes.
22.straighten my hair once in a while
23. make stuffed animals
24. go running for no reason
25. be spontaneous.
26. find a great way to ask chris to sadies. (:
27. put my trust in someone.
28.keep my locker organized
29. watch my favorite disney movies again.
30. organize my thoughts.
31. be able to part with my edward cullen poster
32. grow up.
33. ...but be childish sometimes.
34. love like i never have before.
35. do something that i never thought i would.
36. don't take crap from anyone.
37. take down my facade
38. learn how to count to ten in ten different languages.
39. lose my gringa accent.
40. live each day to it's potential.
41. walk perfectly in killer high heels.
42. buy an outfit i look perfect in.
43. get a favorite song.
44. don't break my phone.
45. go one day without wanting to punch someone in the face.
46. have random acts of kindness everyday.
47. get a puppy.
48. do someone a huge favor.
49. get out of the country.
50. make no enemies
51. have a lord of the rings marathon.
52. ...and a star wars.
53. and a harry potter.
54. watch the season premiere of SLOTAT.
55. get a DVR
56. have a party.
57. get my new years kiss next year.
58. learn to drive.
59. get my license
60. turn sixteen in style.
61. learn how to read people better.
62. become more educated on cheeses and their uses in cooking. XD
63. learn some poledancing moves.
64. have a dream that tops my last great one.
65. then have it come true.
66. feel like a princess for a day.
67. not say that i am fat.
68. perfect my use of chopsticks.
69. <---that number right there.
70. try some new foods.
71. ...try fish, sushi, etc. to make sure i'm not missing out.
72. don't SUBMIT to anyone.
73. find the most awesome birthday presents for everyone.
74. cook for my family more.
75. keep my room clean.
76. make my bed. everyday.
77. go to a spa.
78. learn a song on the piano.
79. learn La La Land by Demi Lovato!
80. find a song that describes me perfectly.
81. ..and scream it in the middle of the street.
82. make a mixed CD of all the songs i love.
83. appreciate a new style of music.
84. appreciate life in general.
85. appreciate the best guy that has ever come into my life <3
86. buy the 'Hello, Cupcake!" book. i must have it.
87. get a few other cookbooks for reference.
88. try half of the recipies in my 3o minute meals cookbook.
89. go to bed at a decent hour.
90. no alcohol.
91. no drugs.
92. dance like nobody's watching, or like there's no tomorrow.
93. perfect my british accent.
94. try a mango.
95. eat more kiwi fruit.
96. make crepes.
97. find out what the heck makes a frappe.
98. make a better smoothie than jamba juice can.
99. don't be physically abusive toward people.
100. paint a picture.
101. paint my walls.
102. be proud of my beach body.
103. figure out what to do with my life.
104. learn how to sing opera.
105. learn a mariachi song for my grandma.
106. go through my clothes and donate some to charity.
107. spend time with chris over the summer.
108. get better at math.
109. survive through the year.
finally, i'd just like to say that i am starting to learn.
learn that i am an idiot sometimes.
and that there's so much I, myself can do to change the circumstances.
here's to a new year filled with peace, happiness, insane sanity, freedom, cute clothes, smiles, friends, kisses, hugs, dancing, singing, loving, and living.
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