You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess.

New TS music, fairy tales, pretty dresses, and true love make a weekend complete.
I can't wait until the full song comes out.
And the movie Valentine's Day.

I'm not going to write too much about formal other than it was last night, and I still feel amazing when I think about it and those vivid memories come back.

I love you.
And I still mean what I said last night about some moments just making me wonder what I could have ever seen in anyone else.

so this is how it feels

“Makes you feel good, doesn’t it? Having people want you, that is. Knowing, or at least feeling like you’re finally worth something. Sometimes even makes you make rash decisions, hurt people you never thought you would. It changes who you are. You suddenly value yourself so much in your life, and yet, at the same time, not at all. You make decisions you would never have before, since you didn’t have the chance. A new sense of self-worth engulfs your soul, telling you to go further and make more people want you. Next thing you know, you’re the ‘it’ item. But with every person that finds you to be something they want, you lose yourself in them. Become what they want. Then, you’re serving them. Compromising all you ever knew for the idealized version of yourself. You tell yourself it is all okay, because now you’re finally worth something. But the reality is that you are not yourself anymore. You can attribute that to all that you may, growing, the ever changing fibers of very being, but, deep down inside, you’ll always wonder who you would have been. Who you would have been without all the lies and cheating. Cheating others, cheating yourself. The worst thing is that I’ve only been able to realize it after feeling like I had lost everyone and everything that had ever mattered to me.”



It makes you think, doesn't it?
I'll tell you a secret about this little piece of writing if you ask.

hello new year!

Wow, I can't believe 2009 is officially gone, and a new decade has dawned upon us. This decade to most likely be my prime years, at that. Haha, anyway, I don't really have too many remarkable things to say, so I will put the things I do have to say in list form for maximum reading efficiency.
1. I'm staying at Ali's tonight, as I did last night as well. We went to go see Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs with her sisters and nephews, and we are going to go see Paranormal Activity tonight, hopefully I will not be scarred for life after having seen that one. Wish me luck.
2. Kevin's party last night/this morning was amazingly fun. (: Hours of playing Sardines and Wii!
3. It is back to school all too soon.
4. I miss you, so very much. I can't wait to see you. You're the only reason I want to go back to school right now.