two-thousand nine (:

i can't believe it's here already.
last year seemingly flew by.
dazzling, isn't it?
(just like edward cullen.)

well, this year i'm going to make mistakes, because i'm only human.
but i'm going to try my hardest not to make any concious ones this year.
i can't do that to anyone again.

anyways, i saw seven pounds.
i really want to ruin it for you right now.
but i'm not going to because someone might chew my head off.
let me just say that i cried twice.
i started crying, went "crap, i don't want anyone to see!" and wiped the tears away.
then i realized everything that happened, and tears came... again.
man, that movie... is amazing.

one movie not to see, though...
Changeling.
Well, it's a great movie when you think of plot and such things, but i hate what the premise is.
another movie that i really want to ruin for you, but i'm not going to.
it just hits my soft spot with little children in this one.
insanity, i tell you.

i also saw the movie Wanted.
wow, there are some sexual scenes in the beginning of that movie.
...yeah.
not any really good effects.. it was ehh.

well, i spent my new years eve at ali's uncle's house.
quite interesting night of NO SLEEP.
I stayed up about 27 hours before i got any sleep at all.
then we crashed.
when we got up, we were like, "WHY THE HECK did we do that..?!"

my new years day was spent.. not sleeping.
i stayed up all night, and then apparently--acc. to vince, there was an ECLIPSE at four in the morning.
dumbass, the moon MOVES.
hahahah.
then there was ozzy impersonating, and starbucks to wake me up.
caffiene is my savior.

i got another formal dress today.
i quite like it, considering it goes with all the accesories i just bought.
my goodness, i've been to the mall SO much over this break.
even more than my usual.
and i'm going to go to cabazon tomorrow.
in search of a tie, and whatever else i feel like getting.

i had another fantastic dream, about the same premise as before.
i miss chris so much, i have to dream everynight.
only the cats walked across me just at the BEST part of the dream was about to happen (;
arghhhhh.
well, at least i still have my imagination.

as far as new years resolutions go, i just want to be nicer, and appreciate more of what i have.
(both physically and emotionally.)
i would like to not be as dramatic, too.
the other resolutions are already known by the person it involves, so they need not be discussed here.

i'm going to write a 109 in 2009(of things i want to accomplish this year), just for the heck of it.
1. buy a mannequin
2. ride silver bullet twenty times in one visit to knotts
3. go to a fashion show
4. 'dazzle' someone
5. not waste money on something i don't need, and will never use.
6. pass all my classes.
7. write a blog that doesn't confuse everyone.
8. learn how to meditate
9. read... thirty books.
10. start a journal
11. get better at singing.
12. ...and dancing.
13. get chris to dance with me. (;
14. donate to charity.
15. buy the office seasons on dvd.
16. make a dress all by myself.
17. and then wear it somewhere.
18. give my parents a random gift just because.
19.don't drink soda for a week.
20. learn five new cooking skills.
21. memorize how to make five different dishes.
22.straighten my hair once in a while
23. make stuffed animals
24. go running for no reason
25. be spontaneous.
26. find a great way to ask chris to sadies. (:
27. put my trust in someone.
28.keep my locker organized
29. watch my favorite disney movies again.
30. organize my thoughts.
31. be able to part with my edward cullen poster
32. grow up.
33. ...but be childish sometimes.
34. love like i never have before.
35. do something that i never thought i would.
36. don't take crap from anyone.
37. take down my facade
38. learn how to count to ten in ten different languages.
39. lose my gringa accent.
40. live each day to it's potential.
41. walk perfectly in killer high heels.
42. buy an outfit i look perfect in.
43. get a favorite song.
44. don't break my phone.
45. go one day without wanting to punch someone in the face.
46. have random acts of kindness everyday.
47. get a puppy.
48. do someone a huge favor.
49. get out of the country.
50. make no enemies
51. have a lord of the rings marathon.
52. ...and a star wars.
53. and a harry potter.
54. watch the season premiere of SLOTAT.
55. get a DVR
56. have a party.
57. get my new years kiss next year.
58. learn to drive.
59. get my license
60. turn sixteen in style.
61. learn how to read people better.
62. become more educated on cheeses and their uses in cooking. XD
63. learn some poledancing moves.
64. have a dream that tops my last great one.
65. then have it come true.
66. feel like a princess for a day.
67. not say that i am fat.
68. perfect my use of chopsticks.
69. <---that number right there.
70. try some new foods.
71. ...try fish, sushi, etc. to make sure i'm not missing out.
72. don't SUBMIT to anyone.
73. find the most awesome birthday presents for everyone.
74. cook for my family more.
75. keep my room clean.
76. make my bed. everyday.
77. go to a spa.
78. learn a song on the piano.
79. learn La La Land by Demi Lovato!
80. find a song that describes me perfectly.
81. ..and scream it in the middle of the street.
82. make a mixed CD of all the songs i love.
83. appreciate a new style of music.
84. appreciate life in general.
85. appreciate the best guy that has ever come into my life <3
86. buy the 'Hello, Cupcake!" book. i must have it.
87. get a few other cookbooks for reference.
88. try half of the recipies in my 3o minute meals cookbook.
89. go to bed at a decent hour.
90. no alcohol.
91. no drugs.
92. dance like nobody's watching, or like there's no tomorrow.
93. perfect my british accent.
94. try a mango.
95. eat more kiwi fruit.
96. make crepes.
97. find out what the heck makes a frappe.
98. make a better smoothie than jamba juice can.
99. don't be physically abusive toward people.
100. paint a picture.
101. paint my walls.
102. be proud of my beach body.
103. figure out what to do with my life.
104. learn how to sing opera.
105. learn a mariachi song for my grandma.
106. go through my clothes and donate some to charity.
107. spend time with chris over the summer.
108. get better at math.
109. survive through the year.

finally, i'd just like to say that i am starting to learn.
learn that i am an idiot sometimes.
and that there's so much I, myself can do to change the circumstances.

here's to a new year filled with peace, happiness, insane sanity, freedom, cute clothes, smiles, friends, kisses, hugs, dancing, singing, loving, and living.