First thoughts & Rollercoasters

Write the first thing you think of when you see the letter. It has to start with that letter.
A: atrocious.
B: bird.
C: chris<3
D: dayummm.
E: elephant.
F: freak.
G: guud.
H: hot.
I: icy.
J: jam.
K: kick.
L: love.
M: mine, mine!
N: NOOO!
O: oxnerds.
P: pancakes.
Q: quick like a bunny.
R: rubio!
S: shake it. / secondhand serenade
T: taking the long road.
U: USC.
V: Vampire
W: Will you marry me..?
X: Xylophone.
Y: yodel.
Z: Zebra!

Dang. Life is a rollercoaster isn't it.
I mean, really, how many times a day do you feel like you are on a complete high, and then ten minutes later you're thinking something completely different. So this is my second post of the day, and I'm feeling considerably better than my first one. Seriously, it's insane how much can change in a minute, let alone a day. And I've learned from personal experience that a week can change your life. (: Well, a moment can, as well. It's interesting that something you choose to do, or not to do, right now could be such a huge impact in the future. I guess there really are some people you don't realize are right until you've already blown them off and not listened to them. I'm sorry about that. Really, maybe you're more right than I give you credit for being, huh? But I'll never say that to your face. It would make you feel too good about yourself. Then again, maybe I'll steal it and then take your soccer ball. (: Yeah, right.

Right now I'm mostly concerned with what I'm going to wear tomorrow. What are you supposed to wear when you have no idea what the weather's supposed to be? No, really. I keep thinking that if I wear long pants and lots of layers and stuff, that I'm going to be sweltering. Ugh. The things I have to deal with.
Or maybe it's just these things that I choose to distract myself with. I find that I'm extremely good at not looking big picture, or even to the future. I just go with whatever is happening that I really don't have to deal with right at the moment, in an effort to ignore the matters at hand.

So I didn't really have much to blog about, I just felt like writing and telling you all how I'm feeling a little better about life/myself in general. Things are looking up.

Before I go I think that I should say something about a certain someone who is very important to me. Really, you've stuck by me for how long? A year, one month, and 5 days. Yes, I counted. I just can't believe you've stuck around through all of this. Sometimes I think that all I've ever brought to you is suffering and stupidity. Grief and blasphemy. Then I look at you and remember how good it feels to want you, to need you with me. Yeah, I do think I need you. I don't care what anyone else thinks, either. I'm living my life for me, and those who don't agree can just vow never to do what I did/have done/am doing. Really, I think that you coming into my life was the best thing to happen, ever. I'm sorry for what I've done to you. I try, I really do. Sometimes it may not seem like I am even aware of your prescence, but there's rarely a second that goes by when I don't think of you. Wow, I love you. <3 & you know who you are.